I want to thank God that we finally talked to each other again. I was happy when I'm in church, and I'm sure alot of ppl know why. well, happy moments usually don't last for long. I just feel that two of us are not suitable, at all. I do miss all the times we spent tgt, be it alone, or with others. They were gr8! He's a nice guy, one of the best guys i've ever known.I'm just afraid that I will feel very low self-esteem if we were tgt. & Apparently we both have some issues to deal with, Idk how long it's going to take. I'm afraid, so I want to erase all my feelings for him before it got deeper. I really not sure whether he likes me, tho three people have told me the same thing , which is he did admit that he likes me. God knows why I'm so insecure.
Each time when you decide to forget or let go of something/someone, your feeling seems magnified, dislike. but i know it's a process that I have to go thru. This is my decision for now, I have no idea what's going to happen in the future,but I'm looking forward, I know God has gr8 plans for me :)
And now, I'm going to meet idiot, eat haggen dazs ice-cream. Haggen dazs is my best friend whenever I'm feeling down. (: tata!
xoxo
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